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30/07/2007 你說有個女孩那一年，那一天的故事……是這樣的……
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你说有个女孩有了隐形的羽翼
一点点的雀斑和发亮的眼睛 世界左右我心单纯又善解人意 哦~~一颗赤子之心 你说你分不清和她模糊的关系 拥抱的那一刻却是即将要离去 一个短暂相遇两天的小插曲 哦~~算不算是爱情 往机场的公路上默默不语 车窗外的景色充斥着信心 就像一场电影一幕幕在播映 登机前你不断向前 当飞机在夜空中持续飞行 也渴望它在你那梦里飞行 你想去他说清解释爱的意义 你说你不会往前 oh~~~~ 你说你分不清和他模糊的关系 拥抱的那一刻却是即将要离去 一个短暂相遇两天的小插曲 哦~~算不算是爱情 算不算是爱情 算不算是爱情 往机场的公路上默默不语 车窗外的景色充斥着信心 就象一场电影一幕幕在播映 登机前你不断向前 当飞机在夜空中持续飞行 也渴望它在你那梦里飞行 你想去他说清解释爱的意义 你说你不会往前 往机场的公路上默默不语 车窗外的景色充斥着信心 就象一场电影一幕幕在播映 登机前你不断向前 当飞机在夜空中持续飞行 也渴望它在你那梦里飞行 你想去他说清解释爱的意义 張震岳《你說有個女孩》
如有雷同，非屬虛構。
27/07/2007 recently....ok, recently, i've been doing a lot of stuff on my own. ermz...spending time with myself...and my mind...yes...just a quick one...on the past week....i know..i haven't blogged for a long time...not my fault ok...msn space takes super long to load sometimes...
ok la...i admit it...there were days i just felt like being left alone...wanting to be alone...away from all civilisation and human activity....like i said...because i wanted to spend time with my mind...
ok....i finally got the cheesecake recipe i wanted..and i've been coming up with a few of my own...
went to Giles' place last sunday...wah...his mushroom soup and hokkien mee was quite tok gong lor...
ok...then...wah...lemme recall ah...erm...monday went for tuition....tues stay at home the whole day and emo...ya..will tell u more on the emo part...ah yes...finally completed Book 1 of taiwan trip photos...ya la..i'm tortoise..i know...back for so long liao then do...kaoz...if u know how it feels to see those photos ah...u will know why i took so long to complete book 1...will start on book 2 probably next week....given the speed i'm going....haha...i think i'll finish it just in time for my next trip there...hahah...which is....in DEC!!!!!
ok..wed was tuition day ...
thurs...ah..suleyman came from TW...so we went out touring S'pore...this one i will blog with the pics la...wait ah...one by one..
ok...this weekend is Tiger Ong's project week...so i must be a good girl tmr and read 雪山飛狐。faintz!Why cannot read something else like.........like.........ok, nvm...u ask me what better options there are...i really also at a lost.....
been watching 走向共和 lately...and i can only say....IT"S DAMN NICE! ya ya...this one i will also blog soon...wah...suddenly...i owe myself a lot of blogs leh....faintz.....ok....nvm....blog or dun blog actually also the same la....still talk kock here and there...haha...
of u ask me ...or rather...if i ask myself...what's the one constant thing that didn't change this whole time....
i can only tell u......
i kept thinking....and thinking and thinking...about a lot of things...when i sort them out...i will tell la...
告訴我，爲什麽我那麽在乎……你我只是想說
4個字
我好想你
然後問4個字
你想我嗎？
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告訴我
告訴我
告訴我
爲什麽我那麽在乎你？！
我討厭你我討厭你我討厭你！
19/07/2007 ASL......HA!yes, i finally kind of remembered something i wanna talk about. ASL......this thing with ASL. for those of you who used certain public chat rooms before....i bet you know what ASL stand for. for those of you who don't:
Age
Sex
Location
and that's the VERY FIRST thing u see whenever those private messages pop up. i got so fed up and irritated. if it was not for that survey, really......i would have cursed and swore at such boring openings. i mean, it's just soooooooo darn irritating. nothing new? ran out of vocabulary ? or are you just sooooo desparate for information?
sigh........pathetic...yes...i consider it pure pathetic-ness. i was really so fed-up and pissed off with the ASL lines that everytime i see people using it right from the start of a conversation, i would just close all windows. c'mon, you should have better brighter ideas and something less stupid.if you could be THAT smart to even use the chat rooms to "make friends" and "get to know each other" . even if the person started with a "hi" or "hello", the moment i see ASL, i close the window.
then this struck me. let's play along. so to all the ASL-users, i gave this reply:
Were u not taught manners? don't u know that when you want some info from the other party, it's only basic courtesy to introduce yourself first?
they say, i think you are funny, can i be your friend?
so, you really think i was funny? i meant it. i'm serious.
oh sorry.
yes, sorry, bye. (report as spam)
ha!
that's not the only irritating stint while in public chat rooms. reply one second slow and u get buzzed or nudged or whatever....u just get knocked on the window.HARD.i hate it! it's not as if i'm really so free to chat with you. and what makes you think that you're the ONLY one i'm talking to. if i could tell u buddy, i would tell u i'm like on an undercover mission, trying to "enjoy" my chat when i really don't.....sighhh....
look, i only got one keyboard, 2 hands and 10 fingers. typing any faster will end me up with 9 fingers. and that will only make me reply u slower than i already was. so u decide, to be a little more patient, or wait much longer in the queue.
whoever said that chatting in the public chat rooms were fun.
seriously, it's not fun. i repeat, NOT fun.
it's really a whole lot of harrassement.
if there's one good reason to dissuade anyone, please, it's not quite the safety issue. but poor pick-up lines.
how interesting can the conversation get when your pick-up line has only 3 letters. bear this in mind, SHIT/ DAMN (my limits) has at least 4 letters.
and you still choose to do worse than 4-letter words.
that gives you(deservingly) one black star with no corners.
ha.
17/07/2007 最愛時刻最愛自己一個人呆在家裏，不受外界干擾。想做什麽就做什麽。
今天是平平靜靜地過去了。不能說很開心，只能說滿足。能夠完成心裏計劃好的一些事情，就是那滿足感。
早上，哦不，應該說是下午，睡到自然醒，吃了午餐，看看報紙，然後剪報。好久沒有剪報了。我從國中的時候就有剪報的習慣。只要是我喜歡的文章或報導，我都會一一剪下，然後收錄在剪報本裏。聼起來可能好笑，或無聊。但是，我覺得這樣的一個習慣不錯。就是，在需要的時候，手上有些相關的資料縂好過得從零開始。研究也好、作業等、補習的資料輔助，我比較喜歡做好準備。有將近一年沒有剪報了。去年的這個時候，就忙著到臺灣去，到了臺灣完全忘了這個習慣。真可笑。想想，還蠻後悔的，沒有涉略一下當地的報刊。阿，有啦，娛樂流行雜誌。哈哈……畢竟，首次過秋冬，總得知道穿什麽比較好，對吧？愛美無罪！打扮有理！嘻嘻~~~~
然後，收拾整理房子。嘻嘻~~~亂七八糟的，再不收，就變成垃圾曹了啦！
煮了綠豆湯。
跑步。哦耶！我的速度快了哦！原本的路程要跑20分鐘，最近時間縮短了，大概12-15分鐘就可以完成了。不過捏。。。這代表我必須開始延長路綫了。阿~~~~*暈倒 *
吃了晚飯，就看了5折目的《牡丹亭》。HY借我很久了，一直沒時間靜靜地坐下來看。哎~~~~終于！還不錯哦，好漂亮的戯服哦！如果你問我，我覺得春香很Q~~~~~哈哈。。。真的很可愛！尤其那個上學堂的一幕，超搞笑！真的是活靈活現！調皮，調皮，再調皮！
現在，要來改作業了。準備明天家教的一些資料。然後，希望能夠早睡一點。睡覺之前，再看看書。恩。
我的一天。充實的一天。
Let me tell you what i really like about staying at home. All by myself.
有個自己的空間，我必須聲明，這確實包括了自己的具體空間。現在住的雖然是哥哥的房子，不過至少，在一定的形式上，因爲暫時看家，所以在這裡，我說了算。哈哈。我可以把音樂開得超大聲；我可以管理冰箱可以放什麽，不可以放什麽（嚴禁汽水！尤其可樂！歡迎酒類！啊！我是酒鬼！）；我可以穿清涼些，不穿也可以（當然我不會這樣。哈哈！會這樣的大概只有和我住在一起的那只鬼。），還是可以整個屋子走趴趴；我有自己的睡房，想怎樣就怎樣；不必排隊爭廁所；不必爭遙控器；不必聼不想聼的。很霸道，會吧？哦！珍惜吧！好景不長在。明年的這個時候，我就無家可歸了。露宿遠方的某一棟樓的某一閒房。哎~~~
it's my space. my world.
一個人的空間，可以讓我的腦筋清靜一些。我可以遠離一切，暫時“與世隔絕”，避開城市的擾亂，可以對我的世界以外的置之不理。我可以好好地想想自己最近的生活，反省一些事情，整理思緒，安定情緒。我可以充實自己。充電。這是我所謂的休息。我總覺得，這樣的空間，是必要的。這纔是健康的生活吧。我不是那種能夠長期周旋在吵雑的花花都市中、在擁擠的人潮中和大家爭個呼吸的空間。日子窮一些，沒關係。辛苦一點也ok.只要偶爾讓我退縮到自己的小小世界中，享受一下寧靜和自由，我是ok的。就是要有能夠好好休息的時間啦。各從其志。我不喜歡過分參與庸庸碌碌的生活習慣。沒有精神。沒有靈魂。
當然，還是有那些時刻，突然覺得自己很寂寞，孤單。很希望能夠有人陪。不過，想到可能將來就沒有這樣的生活了，就會更加珍惜每一次的這樣的一天，屬於自己的一天。
放慢腳步，聼聼自己的心跳，自己和自己説話。我喜歡我的世界。我喜歡我的自由。真的很滿足。
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以下題外話
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收拾房子的時候，收到一些東西
突然又勾起了很多回憶
想念的時候
該怎麽辦？
不能怎麽辦
有勇氣去讓它在腦海裏打轉
縱比逃避好
逃避就好像是麻醉葯
下次的想念，只會讓你更痛苦
所以，我剛剛的結論是這樣的：
想念的時候，怎麽辦？
不能怎麽辦
就，想到哭
哭了過後，睡一覺
就沒事了。
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希望你口試順利通過
很快的
我們就要失去聯絡一陣子了
也很快的
希望能夠見到你
收集你的故事和精彩
等我們見面的時候
請你在給我說書
好嗎？
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14/07/2007 一個人的詩界沒有打錯字
最近打算避開網路世界
覺得，過分沉浸在虛擬世界中
整個人好像上癮了
情緒浮躁
所以放工後、結束一天的忙碌後
自己一個人躲在房裏
看書、聼音樂
是一種享受
不僅睡得好， 隔天早上精神也很不錯
最近的枕邊書是 蘇軾的詞選
背起一兩首
不停咀嚼回味
感觸很深
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如果日後的你和我
在每天的忙碌結束後
能夠一起窩在家中
閲讀詩詞
感覺應該會不錯吧
11/07/2007 it's tangy-powa sauce!vegetables left over from the vegetable stock. i didn't quite know what to do with it.but it tastes sooooo sweet and yummy....too wasted to throw away. so........i was thinking about it for a night......before something struck me.
blend it.
blend it and make pasta sauce.
but i don't really like conventional pasta sauce. and i don't really like pasta itself.
ok.
blend it and eat it chilled with udon.
ok, not bad.
so i blended a few more stuff with it. cream cheese, sour cream, garlic, onions etc....
woah!
i can only say.....
it's super yummy.
no joke.
i could even use it as nacho dip. just add mozarella and heat it up.
大姐、姐夫 tried the dip. and they liked it. i think it goes well with marshmellow. no kidding!
lina sampled the udon with the sauce. it wasn't chilled enough. but i told her i'll leave some for her in the fridge. she and i kinda licked up the whole platter. hahah...it's THAT good. ;)
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i'm thinking of turning it into soup.
i'm serious.
but it's probably gonna be another whole lot of dishes to do after that........
but hey.
this came across my mind again when i was cooking.
我在想，以後，親愛的你應該不會挨餓吧。幸福與否，那是看你自己怎麽想了。至少，我會竭盡所能，讓你在疲憊的一天後，有個豐富的一餐。希望你是個愛冒險，愛吃的人。因爲我做菜，都是凴感覺。希望你喜歡味道重一些的，因爲蒜頭、姜、大蔥 是我下廚時的必備。希望你喜歡吃酸的，因爲我自己的胃口偏酸。我喜歡 lemon.
哎~~~~
我只想為你做做飯。真的。
能為你做飯，我是幸福的。
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ah yes, since the sauce can be turned into so many things, i've really decided to call it the tangy-powa sauce. ;) 10/07/2007 again. i cried againi'm feeling so down and lousy right at this moment. really. i just cried. i was walking home from work and i cried along the whole way. i couldn't care less about being seen by some nosey stranger or surprised passer-by. i just wanted to cry while the feeling of wanting to cry was still there. i didn't want to hold it till i was home. i would've choked to death.
is it my fault? or was it mr ng's? if he had kept his mouth shut or said a little less to irritate me, proving once again that he could be hated at times, i might not have been so upset to have cried. sigh sigh sigh.
ok,我承認。 我受傷了。怎樣？你需要提醒我，我心中還有那一道很深很深的傷口嗎？你需要一直去拔開它， 讓它重復地流血，讓我反復地哭嗎？你真的很機車。此時此刻的我，眼睛很痛很痛。我真的很害怕，剛才會當著大家的面前打開水壩。
對阿，我是個喜歡被捧的女生，怎樣？不行哦？！？！哪個女生不喜歡？！可是，我真得很討厭你一口咬定我就是那種會降伏在甜言蜜語中的女生。我告訴你！我不是！！！！！！
我不是！
不認真的傢伙，我討厭！我討厭這些騙子。別以爲我們女生真的笨到看不出你們在捧我們。別以爲，聰明的只有你們男生的甜言蜜語。別以爲那小小的疼惜就能夠叫女生對你們服服帖帖。我從很久以前就很懷疑，大大地懷疑，到底有哪個男生說的話，真的信得過。我大大大大大大地懷疑，徹底懷疑。
你每次都是這樣，縂愛用激將法。拜托，忍你很久了。
雖然你說的話不是沒有道理，雖然你說的話確實有讓我在思想上成熟了一些，但是，請別得寸進尺。你也該知道適可而止吧？爲什麽， 要在我傷口上撒鹽？！？！？
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有時候，我真的希望，自己是個“完美的女生“ 。 有個SUPERBOYFRIEND.那麽，就不會受傷，不會傷心。總之，就是不會有不好的事情發生在感情旅程上。我就不用面對這些惱人鳥人的東東了。我承認，感情，是我的致命傷。我承認，感情上，我是苦命的。好想大力大力地哭。哭不停。最好哭死自己。哭到眼睛瞎。
療傷真的很不容易。療傷比失戀來得痛。我已經很盡力地讓自己不去想太多了。爲什麽身旁的人。總是那麽……唉！
讓我靜一靜。好嗎？不要提醒我，我受傷了。給我機會，轉移注意力，轉移視線。這樣心會比較輕鬆。可以嗎？可以嗎？不要逼我上絕路……不要逼我封閉自己。不要逼我墮落。不要逼我頽廢。不要不要……不要讓我再哭了，我真的很累很累……
i really can't brush it aside. it hurts.it hurts so much.everyday, i'm in pain. i may laugh. i may smile. everything goes on routine. but did it ever occur to u, deep down inside, it hurts? deep down inside, it's hurting so bad. sometimes, i wish i could sleep forever. if i don't wake up, i won't feel it. i won't feel the pain.but i really don't want to live like this. i want to find back ME. i just want to be happy. i just want the pain to go away. please......i don't want to give up on myself. i never believe in this. i want to walk out of it. please, don't force me to give up on myself. please, stop tearing at the wound. please......
i hate myself for walking ahead of God. if i had slowed down, if i had listened, i wouldn't be in this state now.i'm not losing hope in God. He's gonna see me through it. He will. I so strongly believe. But still, it takes time. I don't know how long this time. I'm not ready to face anyone. I'm just not ready yet to be openly laughed at. I'm just not ready to take away the bandage yet. I'm just not healed yet.
Do you get it?
I still can't forgive myself. 發洩騙子，都是一堆騙子，不是嗎？
我討厭這樣
討厭討厭討厭討厭討厭討厭討厭
我好累
心，真的很累
你不懂
他不懂
沒有人懂
到頭來
還是自己一個人
到頭來
還是一樣
到頭來
還是真假難分
到頭來
我還是錯了
原來
那麽殘酷
那麽孤獨
那麽無奈
那麽真實
娃娃她想哭
娃娃她真的想哭
想號啕大哭
大哭一場
娃娃是愛哭鬼
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娃娃
你要加油
你不可以老是這樣想
你要記得
還是有人懂
還有上帝爸爸在
娃娃
你可以的
娃娃
你不要放棄
縂有一天
縂有一天
那天會到來的
娃娃
不要哭
不可以哭
09/07/2007 這是一篇很長的哦~~~這篇，應該會很長。這幾天，因爲某些事，想了比較多。得到的結論，也當然很多。
事件一
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參加了朋友的婚禮
很榮幸地
擔任了翻譯員
第一次正式在講臺上翻譯傳道的信息
感覺有些緊張
不過還好
這次有機會事先準備好功課
所以大綱和内容都有一定的認識
再説
這位傳道我非常熟悉他
之間的配合也不錯
事後教會裏幾位資深的翻譯員對我說
我還不錯
大概不久就可以正式上任了
從很久以前
我就很期待
能夠正式上任翻譯員的工作
不知道爲什麽
就是很喜歡這份工作就對了
無論是文稿翻譯
講臺翻譯
我都很喜歡
可能
出自對語言的喜愛
沒有其他的
只是單純覺得，能夠用不同的語言和全世界的人溝通
很幸福
沒有距離
但是
上任與否，決定權不在我身上
所以，我一直到祈禱
希望上帝能夠引領我，告訴我，翻譯工作是否就是他要我參與的侍奉領域
在這個階段，我真的 只想照著上帝的話去做
我只想聽從他
就那麽簡單
所以，我還在禱告
我還在尋求他的旨意
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事件二
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同樣是婚禮為導火缐
讓我想了很多
結婚，原來，真得很麻煩
我不知道爲什麽到了現在，我才有這樣的想法？
是因爲對愛情厭倦了？是因爲開始失望了？是因爲在經歷了很多以後，思想改變了？人長大了？
3年前，哥哥的婚禮，我也有參與。而且那時候，還真的是什麽都包
從宴會名單、座位安排、晚宴司儀、紀念品包裝、嫂嫂當天的禮服手花等等等等等
我好像是全程參與了
就連婚禮後的一些“殘局”
我也幫忙收拾
但我那個時候，一點都不累
還覺得很好玩，很開心。
結婚，真的很麻煩
明明是兩個人的事，爲什麽會讓那麽多人那麽累呢？
我昨天看著參與的各位緊張、慌張、忙亂
再看看自己
就覺得，現在的我，真的很不錯
我只想維持現在的我，現在的狀態，還真的不賴。
I could only find one good reason for having a christian wedding.
不是爲了那閒教堂，不是爲了儀式。抛開亮麗的禮服、堂皇的擺設等等等
上帝無所不在。就算在海邊也好。在簡陋的山村小屋也好。在熱氣球裏也ok.
來到上帝面前才是重點。
我要和你在上帝面前發誓、見證。大家是證人。
就那麽簡單。
不見得亞當和夏娃結婚的那天，他們有教堂。唯一的賓客，就是那些新造的動物。
但是，他們畢竟來到了上帝面前。
夜深人靜的夜晚，外面下著綿綿細雨，風涼涼的，我還可以一個人地靜靜思考，寫寫日記
這是我的自由。我真的很珍惜我的自由。
好多人，最近都一直不停地提醒我，是不是時候要“物色”理想對象了。
神經病
我才22。
我還有很多夢想要追
有了另一半，就等於完蛋吧。
Daddy Ken asked, "so, will i be acting as your wedding coordinator soon?"
"Yes, in ten years."
Pastor Ong said," Yes, so i will be praying for you and your partner, hopefully God will show him to you soon."
"Yes, i'm in no hurry. In ten years, I'll still be fine."
每一位問我類似這種問題的，我的答案總是
“對啦，十年後。“
我不是耍脾氣。我不是對愛情絕望。我不是不想嫁。我只是認爲，時間只是遲早的問題。
欲速則不達。
小不忍則亂大謀。
我只是想等待上帝的旨意和時間。
所以我不急。
Here's why:
經一事，長一智
在經歷了一些事情後，我開始發現我越來越懂得自己了
更懂得自己要的是什麽、不好的地方在哪裏、到底準備好了沒
我只想以最佳狀態進入下一段的感情，如果還有的話
我給我自己幾年的時間，希望能夠好好地預備自己，準備自己
我想把最好的都給你。我把這段時間，當作是上帝在磨煉我，訓練我，調教我
之前，走得比上帝快，結果一身傷。
自作孽。真是個笨蛋。
如果真的有下一個你，你會明白，自由對我來說，很重要嗎？
每一個和我在一起的男生，我都給對方很多自由。
因爲我愛我的自由。我只是將心比心。
你會在夜深人靜的時候，讓我靜靜地寫日記嗎？
你能夠讓我自己一個人逛街嗎？
你能夠允許我和朋友出門嗎？
先説好，我的男性朋友居多。
如果真的有下一個你，你會明白我真的很愛上帝嗎？
我可以爲了上帝，放棄你。
我也可以因爲上帝的緣故，很愛很愛你， 對你不離不棄。
你會明白，你也一定要很愛上帝嗎？
不然，縂有那麽一天，我們會分開的。
不要問我爲什麽我能夠那麽肯定地這樣下結論。
已經被燙傷幾次了，你難道還不知道危險嗎？
已悟，就那麽簡單。
下一個你，請在說愛我前，先證明你愛上帝。
我是個看行動作判斷的人。我對自己的判斷能力也越來越清楚了。
下一個你，如果沒有把握，請不要對我作出承諾。我只會對你作出的承諾打哈欠，說
“走著瞧。“
說我臭屁也好，蠻不講理也好，難伺候也好。
人，縂愛做出很多的承諾。又有多少，真的做到？
Please, walk the talk.
讓我的眼睛看見你做的一切，讓我心服口服。
Don't talk so much. Just do it.
Don't tell me you will take me to Venice.
Buy the air tickets and surprise me totally.
Make me so stunned I'm speechless.
Throw in the effort of packing my luggage for me already.
Don't tell me i'm your princess or sweetie-pie or the so-commonly-known-dear
Make me breakfast while i'm still in bed.
Sing me to sleep.
Never let go of my hand when i'm in my heels.
Afterall, that's how a princess IS treated.
I need more than the title, i need more than just the crown and tiara.
I need your fullest attention, butler boy!
*hee*
GET IT?!
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事件三
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今天，我下廚了
咖喱烏東面
先不說好吃不好吃
先說整個過程的心情
我很在意自己能不能下廚
因爲我總是對自己的期望很高
我很希望，有一天，如果真的當上了妻子
能夠烹調美食，把我心愛的你養的健健康康的
如果你沒健康的身子，誰來照顧我，對吧？
每次下廚
整個過程中，我腦海裏都會一直想著，不知道未來的你，會不會喜歡這樣的口味
未來的你，會不會因爲我下廚，而感動
還是，把它當作理所當然的
好想讓你嘗嘗第一時間出爐的佳肴
好想把你喂得飽飽的
這樣，我就很幸福了。
不要問我爲什麽。
我只是喜歡親手為心愛的人做點什麽罷了。
就是，金錢買不到的。
可能，從小到大。媽媽下廚。都會說是家裏某個人愛吃的
所以才選擇烹調那道菜。媽媽總是把爸爸和我們的肚子擺在第一位。
自己吃剩飯剩菜，也沒關係。
可是只要我們說“好吃”，媽媽就會很開心。而且，誰喜歡什麽，都記得一清二楚。
這樣的媽媽很偉大。我只是單純地想像媽媽這樣。
能夠擁有最簡單的快樂和幸福，是很美麗的事情。
媽媽真的很美。因爲媽媽美，爸爸也真的很帥。
嘻嘻
我想給你做做飯
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有沒有想過
就算找到了另一半
他/她未必能夠一生一世地在你身邊
或許，他/她會比你早走
或許，他/她在你人生中會有一段時間不能陪在你身旁。
踫到被逼自己獨處的時候，你會怎麽辦？
當你已經習慣他/她在你身邊
當你完全沒有預料到，他/她會突然離開
最後的我，還是要爲了這個可能做好準備。
在他/她先走一步的時候，我並不會因爲這樣而變得孤寂
在擁有他之前，我本來就是一個人
一個人有一個人的精彩
我會一直追尋著這樣的精彩，直到我也離開這世界，到天堂，與你重逢。
所以，我不怕以後的你比我早走一步
只要你也是上帝的孩子
我能夠確定你到了哪裏去。
我也知道，你不會因爲我早走一步而害怕。
我是上帝的女兒
你知道我到了哪裏去。
請你一直開心地追尋一個人的精彩
直到我們在天堂重逢。
這囘，是永遠。
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我看了好多
所以變得清醒些。未必聰明點，但清醒是絕對的。
現在對於任何人對我說的話
我都會懷疑
我都會起戒心
我都會不安
我都會小心
我都會遲疑
因爲我怕
搞不好，你也是騙子
我很容易受傷
也傷得差不多了
保護自己，是必要的。
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07/07/2007 Alone is NOT good when....I have to do DU alone........arhg!!!!
BUT THEN AGAIN! ALone is pretty GOOD when I REALLY have to do DU alone......
at least...nobody to kajiao me or dee -siao me...haha....see below for further explanation...no...this is not some silly trick to make u read my blog...haha....close the browser anytime u want..not like i can do anything man...
Today at work.....the new guy who came in for "rehab" turned up at about 10.45am...but he told W that he had some famliy issues and wasn't feeling well himself, so he asked to take leave. Oh wellz...i guess there was nothing W could do since W is still under "rehab" himself man...so of course..he made the very obvious but not so apt decision of " letting him off as long as he told T already".....ok...some decision...
Some decisions affect me, not u, buddy. TOOT!
haha...ok..as soon as W told me that the new guy wasn't going to be around, i knew i was in for in. I had the schedule in my head already, and there wasn't going to be anyone else at DU except me for the WHOLE day...fridays are always busy, and there was NEVER one friday i went home on time....i usually "volunteerily" did OT...
Lunch crowd was fine, manageable.....T popped in here and then to help..in his usual style of pulling one or two sheets of order out of the machine....telling me there's X number of miso and Y number of rice...then he walks off in style," Yes Miss? Table for how many?"
But lunch wasn't so bad. Really. I could manage alone and better, if T hadn't decided to stand there and niao E. E's getting better u know, his memory is superb la....i don't have to remind him of any special orders...he can remember u know..he can...
But dinner was horrific....haha...there was a CROWD!!! and kitchen only had R, K and E. DU......only me. YEAH! YEAH! YAHOO!
Crazy.
I can only say that i'm really proud of myself. For one, I did DU all alone from 4-9.30pm.....Second, I did not lose my temper AT ALL!!!!! Really, usually i would have blown my top at everything....but not today...maybe because i was toooooo busy to pay attention to all these...rather keep calm and steady and minimise wrong orders....Third, the speed in kitchen was somehow tuned...and i could ask for it to be faster or slower....R can do 3 orders at a time....hahaha....so power...K can also manage with 2 at a time.....really not bad...Fourth, NO WRONG ORDERS ATＡＬＬ！！！
Fifth and the most important...i think God was in control all the time. REally...so all i can say is...
THANK YOU HEAVENLY DADDY!!!
:)
03/07/2007 淑女和娃娃之逛街記yeah, it's 淑女 and 娃娃 二人組。 today, they went shopping.
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哇！好久好久沒有這樣逛街了！！！！！！
我只能說
爽！
哈哈，here's why:
firstly, it's been a REAL LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG TIME since HY and I had any chance like this to really WALK almost the whole of any decent shopping hunts. 我們真的從一樓起開始“掃蕩”噢~~~~
second, when you're in the best of company, anything u choose to do is FUN! 什麽都可以一起看、逛、選、給意見。看到淑女衣服我就喊 HY.HY看到娃娃裝的就喊我。很好玩。哈哈。互相幫忙看看選選，真的好久沒有這樣了哦~~~~兩個女生平時除了打工，還要兼顧家庭，弟弟妹妹，當然也要自己的空間、時間，耍孤僻。偶爾難得一起出來瘋一瘋，感覺真的很棒捏！
third, the GST pay pack....haha...with that extra little bit....well...we are supposed to use it right? to subsidise our GST increment right? ok lor....we use lor...hahah...ya...i used...quite a bit in one shot...hahah....
fourth, i got what i wanted. hmmm...here's what i got....no pictures tho'..well...not yet at least...一條黑色短褲，HY選的。真的還不錯。很舒服，卻不會走光。哈哈！還有一件吊帶裙。哈哈，我試穿後，自己被自己嚇到了。哈哈……HY too i guess....她說我的腳變長了……這個叫做特效裝嗎？哈哈！隨便啦，性感不錯， 可愛就好。 ;) 還有黑底銀色吊帶。還蠻好看的，搭配衣服也比較容易吧。現在不乘機多穿短褲，很快就沒有機會了啦~~~ 恩~~~還有一個閃閃發亮的hairband. finally , i found one that is cheap and prettyyyyyyyy! the original one i had, which i bought from Taiwan is still usable, but somehow i think it's getting a little loose. It's hard to fix my hair in place, and i don't quite know the correct way of getting it back in shape, which i do not wish to risk bending it "according to what i know" lest it really becomes 無可救藥。 After all, it's one of the very first item I bought in Taipei (西門町） the second night i was there.
fifth, HY and i are almost ready for the beach after this shopping trip....wooooohoooo.....i really can't wait man.....hahaha....we've been planning for an outing to the beach for a long time...about time...:)
i did not disclose anything..wahahahahahahaha....
last but not least.....
it's always nice just hanging out with a good ol' pal.....
tt's all tt matters....
：）
really.
thanks HY, for spotting that hot pants..haha...and yes...i still think the bags from the last shop we stopped at...is still worth the buy! :)P i also wannnnnnnnnnnt ~~~~~~~~~ but but, i got no more $$$$........hahaha....
really, those bags are big enough to put one moo moo in u know.....can i put myself in and have someone carry me to school everyday? hahahahaha....
ok, no more lame stuff. that's it. back to work tmr.
老爺，你什麽時候要回來？很想你哦 ~~~you better make it back before i quit. :)
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