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28/06/2007 想念我最近常常會變得很安靜
一個人，坐在床邊、窗邊
望著天上的月亮、星星
聽歌、胡思亂想
話説，那天自己一個人
看著 LoNeLy PlaNet
計劃年底的行程
用手指沿著地圖上某個路缐的時候
我竟然哭了
稀里嘩啦地哭了
哭得好慘
好丑
隔天的眼睛又腫了
讓同事發現了，有點尷尬
我也亂了。我到底是愛上了臺北，還是愛上了你。爲什麽，似乎什麽都放不下。我肯定，我確實喜歡那個城市和所有的一切。我懷念那裏的生活。街道、小吃、天氣、人情味、熱情、空氣中的味道、點點滴滴點點滴滴。當然，少不了你。
事情也過了一陣子了。按理說，心情應該比較好一點才對啊。爲什麽，腦筋整天還是想著你？昨天夜裏，我坐在窗邊看著月亮和上帝説話。我開始害怕。如果這樣的感覺，是一輩子也都不會改變，我該怎麽辦？我好像不能怎麽樣吧。會不會是我太固執，怎麽也不願承認全部已經過去了？還是，因爲保持著之間的友情，所以我不能大膽地恨你、排斥你、封鎖你？或者，你對我，還是不錯的。所以，我給自己製造了虛假的希望。
犯賤。
我不敢，也不希望你不理我。
有時候，我真的很想問，你和她還在一起嗎？你們還好嗎？可是，無論是什麽答案，都已經不重要了吧。我好累。
你聼過林宇中的《靠岸》嗎？歌詞中的字字句句，我真的經歷過。我這樣說，你會相信嗎？我説不上來那種感動。不過我確實曾經感受到了。是啊，感動不是說出來的。你要去體驗。你要去感應。
就像……
那天打工，突然，真的很突然，（明明就忙著拿飯端菜）回憶非常突然地掃到了你溫暖我雙手的那一刻。停留。一陣衝擊、一股不知哪裏來的什麽“東東”（我可以叫做力量嗎？溫暖嗎？感動嗎？I have no idea...simply no idea what u call IT.)，突然地湧上心頭。我只能深呼吸，冷靜，吞掉眼淚，然後繼續工作。
我想，再也沒有機會，讓我真正地感受感動了吧。
現在的我，很希望能夠用什麽，交換24小時的時間，到臺北的街頭流浪。回到象上去，看看101。你說，已經不會變顔色了。換成打廣告了。500萬台幣，寫一句 " Diane, marry me."
我還開玩笑說，應該叫女的回話， “ Ask my mum , Peter."
就連101，也不能提醒你，任何有關我的一點一滴了。你還記得我嗎？你真的記得我嗎？你記得什麽？
《刺青》中的對白，有一句：
“你爲什麽會記得？“
“那你呢，爲什麽選擇忘記？“
你，真的記得我嗎？你說你永遠不會忘記的。
騙子。你是騙子。
臭豆腐、鹽酥雞 ~~ 耶！哈哈！走運了！
外面 pasar malam 開儅咯
嘻嘻
來了臭豆腐和鹽酥雞
哦耶！
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it was drizzling today...on the way home from tuition
really wanted to run today
sian
it had to drizzle
stop
drizzle
OI! MAKe uP YouR MiNd tO rAin oR nOt....CAN?!?!
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結果，我一邊打blog，一邊吃臭豆腐和鹽酥雞
*運倒 *
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ok, never mind
i shall run on saturday
and yes!!!
sat.....
i'm so looking forward to see Khalil Fong
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20/06/2007 fly awaywas at the airport in the wee hours of the morning
saw no planes
but the departure board
luggages
passengers
made me wanna fly bad enough
it was a year ago
coming to a year ago
when i dropped everything
and left
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what must i do
to fly?
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其實
我只需要一張機票
遠走高飛后
參與敢死隊的行列
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贊助我飛機票吧
對了
如果有多餘的錢
沒有地方花
麻煩
幫我還債
到了我要去的地方
我會寄明星片答謝你的
:P
突然很想你突然很想你
真的會想你
I really dunno why
就是想你
就是那麽簡單
就是有點無奈 19/06/2007 COOKIE!!made cookies today
first batch turned out erm....
ok...
haha..
the second batch was better
had fun...
yup..
even showed my friend via MSN video conference call
hehe
i'm just glad the cookies are edible..
:)
haven't baked in while
been wanting to go back to cooking for a long time
i still have so many recipes to try out
:)
餅乾好吃
只是賣相不太好而已
哈哈
哎喲
重出江湖
也許要練習一下啊
畢竟很久
真的很久
沒有下廚了
嘻嘻 16/06/2007 Church Camp 07 Austin HillsAustin Hills
Lesson 1
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When I first caught sight of the scenery
I was awed
For a golf course on a hill
With pine trees
And a view that spread far
It reminded me just so much of the views I used to see atop Taipei's hills.
That night, I saw, for a long while, stars.
So many of them
Dangling from the sky on an invisible thread
Swaying a little side to side
I cried.
I sat there with my sister
And we were just talking about how much people always mention about their other halves whenever they got attached.
And she said
"Don't you think, Taiwan's just like your boyfriend. You've been back for so long but you keep rattling about it."
I was choking and trying hard not to show my tears.
When she wanted to return to our room, I gave an excuse and stayed a while longer.
The moment she stepped out of the area
I really cried so hard I was shaking real bad.
But no one knew I cried so hard.
Only God heard.
I was calling out to Him at the same time.
I was all lost and hopeless.
Only God could help me.
Some of you might know, I've been fighting this since I came home so long ago.
Until these few nights that I sat in bed, speaking to God, did I realise, How and What I was to go about doing
So that
I can move on.
Was I glad I did that.
Throughout the few days, I could sense Him speaking to me in big ways and small ways.
Mostly small ways
Small ways where others wouldn't know.
Small ways meant that He was speaking personally to me
And no one else
That felt good
It feels good
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Lesson 2
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I think
It's time to step back into service.
Sunday school?
Worship leading?
Teen ministry?
I really don't know exactly where He wants to place me
I still owe someone who approached me some time ago an answer
I'm supposed to tell her tomorrow if I would say yes
I really don't know.
I miss the kids.
I miss teaching them.
I do.
But when I teach, I like to insists on my method and my style.
I like it even better, when parents and grandparents trust me with their kids.
I'm hesitant.
An incident happened during the camp
And when i shared it with everyone.
A concerned grandparent approached me to "teach me what i SHOULD"VE DONE" and to "CORRECT" me
I was discouraged at what she said to me
For one, she used to be my sunday school teacher
Did she not know, I am who I am and this is what I am? For some of the beliefs I hold, for some of the knowledge I know, came from her. Did she forget to trust me or, did she forget to trust herself?
Two, counting the number of years, her grandchild might one day with high probability end up in my class
And if she doesn't trust me to teach the way I teach, then..........
Please, don't send your kiddo to me
I'm not trying to be rude here
I was really discouraged
Until I decided there and then, after a short calm-down in the toilet, to talk to my da jie.
That was when
I became even more confident
I am very sure what I did was true to myself and true to my style
Yes, I may not be a good teacher
Yes, I may still have a lot to learn and will never finish learning
But, in all that I do, I do it for God.
I don't wish to say what was being said to me , 50 years from now.
I still have not made my mind.
The decision is not on me.
He'll tell me what to do.
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Lesson 3
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God said
"Let GO"
about time.....................
__________Sidetrack___________
我找到娃娃的接班人了。
10/06/2007 能吃是FOOD: GOOD FOODRencie 's leaving for home next friday
so Gor and I decided to treat him
And I picked Kuishin-bo since Rencie said he liked sushi
I personally favour Kuishin-bo not because of the sushi
In fact, the range of sushi is still limited and never as good as some other places
But I was thinking more in terms of the variety of Japanese food and freshness.
Anywayz...we 3 went to Kuishin-bo
It was really great fun eating and chatting at the same time
Kuishin-bo has always been a favourite and must-go for HY and I since we started patronizing it some 2 years ago?
One of the first places we hit this year after I returned from TW was Kuishin-bo.
It's a place that holds pretty much memories for me.
Great food,not bad a pricing....of course, I was always amidst good dining company for all the fun I needed.
Not to mention, when in good company, appetites are improved :).
AS usual, I think i out-ate the guys. The last time HY and I went, we shocked a whole gang of 8 or 10 guys....haha...they came later...left earlier...but the two skinny ladies sitting in one corner was still at main course when they left.
HAHA....we rock. Our stomachs rock further.Yahooooo......
Today was no exception. I was also in good company. And I seriously think the guys enjoyed laughing at me eating rather than eating the food and enjoying the taste themselves. Oh, wadeva...
First they laughed at me because my first round was a whole plate of sashimi. Both of them don't eat raw. So they were quite disgusted and intrigued that iI could down so much raw stuff....I told rencie it gets cooked in my tummy..haha..
Then when I came back with more food and more food and more food..and they returned it with more laughter and more laughter and more laughter...
rahz....
hahah....it was fun....we took a lot of silly pictures....
hahah...rencie posed with his snow crabs...like battling the claws and what-nots...
And Gor had his face "framed" up in the claws....
I had my Oden-mushi sipping pose...haha...this is cool stuff...2 piecce of chicken meat...plus one prawn...cooked and boiled in a small tea=pot...and u get something like Bak-kut-teh...but this was like...Hae-kuey-teh...haha
According to the captain there...when i asked him wad it was...because i don;t remember seeing it there previously...he said it's for light drinking..and since i wanted something warm but not heavy as udon or kaminabe..i opted for this.
Again, Rencie and Gor laughed at me when i brought back a teapot.
Rahs....
But hey, it was good u know...
And yes! They have raspberry/strawberry sorbet!!!!!
I simply love this!!
I had two servings....woah...it took all the grease away and made me wanna eat more...haha...so i hit the snow crabs...but the best part of the sorbet..it felt like Cactus Ice Cream back in Penghu, TW. It had a similar sour tangy taste but never like those that stings your teeth and tgums and make u shudder as if you got pricked by a dozen needles...
It really tasted great...And reminded me so much of the cactus ice cream...
I remembered my tour guide, Uncle Jack, in Penghu, telling us that some described the taste of the cactus ice cream to that of being in love.
就是甜蜜幸福的戀愛。。。就是讓人回味咀嚼的感覺。。。
yup...this is really like it...so when i made this funny expression after i first tasted the ice cream...haha....Gor and Rencie lauged out loud and told me to pose again to take a picture...
Rahz....
haha..but i t was fun la...hahah...after i saw the pic...i was like..hey...this is really me ...stupid expressions and lame feelings....haha...Gor said the same thing too...ok..'nuff said...
and yes...snow crabs...i think i'm getting better at taking them apart with grace...haha..the previous times...i would get pricked and poked....today..not a single wound..haha...yahooooo....call me the expert.....haha...it felt like dissection class back in secondary school...where we had to make sure the ENTIRE SPECIMEN stayed intact while being removed....
Yeah....my snow crab did stay intact...not anymore after i posed a pic with it...haha...down my tummy it goes................"weeeeeeeeee"....
I love to eat. I really love to eat. I may look small....but my tummy's so big...haha...rather...my appetite is so huge....i scare off people sometimes...haha..i go broke eating....really...food..i love food...
I love to taste and savour the different flavours...it's really great to be able to pig out and eat...
there were times i was so sick....i couldn't eat....i just couldn't ingest anything...even water was difficult...
so i always treasure the time my whole body is in good health and allows me to taste the great flavours.....
i treasure the times more....when i can eat and chat with my friends...i shop alone...i may do a lot of things on my own...but when it comes to enjoying great food.....never...never leave home without a buddy-gal or a great bunch of FWENS!!!!.....:)
09/06/2007 重溫扭蛋機4昨天我拿到了eyore
今天我拿到了ROO
我真的不敢相信
自己有那麽幸運
XD
剛才身上只有一個硬幣
投了下去
好害怕會拿到不想拿到的
伸手一拿
眼睛還眯了一下
才鼓起勇氣看了一眼
OH MY MOO-NESS
真的是小袋鼠ROO
我興奮地當場喊了"YES!"
站在我身旁好奇地看著我扭蛋的小朋友
好像被我嚇到了
哈哈
XD
全家團圓咯！ 07/06/2007 重溫扭蛋機3我今天又扭蛋了
嘻嘻
過癮
奇跡般的
真的是奇跡般的
rambi
小象
真的覺得自己很幸運
本來沒有什麽衝動想扭的
可是越逼近那排機器
有股莫名的感覺
今天運氣應該不錯
投幣
扭轉
粉紅色的扭蛋滾了出來
“哇靠！不要告訴我又是小豬~~~”
看了一下
咦！是小象耶！
小象可愛哦
紫色的耶
yahoo!!
現在，我只差
eyore
roo
*眯眼*
><
就是全家團圓了啦！
拜托
第一次扭蛋全家團圓
讓我實現
拜托 一個人的精彩part 5難得今天又休假了
那天和HY提到了最近新出爐的專輯
所以今天給小朋友補習后
到了HMV去
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一個屬於自己的一天
踫到了不少的趣事
先說新專輯好了
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終于找到蘇打綠的專輯了
很心動，很想買
可是HMV買的價格總是比其他唱片行貴很多
看來我必須再等等了
等到月底有錢了
再打算
Shrek 3 的 OST也真的不錯哦
其中我最喜歡的
Royal Pain (EEL)
What I gotta do (Macy Gray)
Thank You forlettinme bemy celf ( Again) (Eddie & Antonio=> I hope i didn't remember wrongly)
我覺得Macy演唱的那首歌詞不錯
我還蠻有共鳴的
最棒的兩張
讓我超級無敵心動的啦~~~
Maroon 5
《It's not long before soon》
我的天啊！
他們真得很棒！！！
有一首的歌詞我很喜歡。。。可是。。我突然想不起是哪一首了
第12首，是嗎？
方大同的《愛愛愛》
我的天啊！
他的soul真的不錯耶
混合了R&B
感覺真的很棒
就是
聼了還會想聼
應該說
是曲調獲勝了
我是被曲調給吸引的
後來聼了歌詞
就覺得
不同凡響
保留了很多西方的soul動感
後來回家的路上想了想
這張希望不只是HMV有進口
因爲方大同在本地並沒有被大力推薦
可是
SM竟然賣到缺貨！？！？
偶然看到了比較特別的兩張
日本歌手
RUI 還有Angela Aki
兩個女生都個別推出了自己的第二章專輯
RUI的感覺很Avril
但是她的歌聲比Avril來得好（快歌啦。慢歌的話還是推Avril)
Angela Aki的歌聲比較厚
音質不錯
所以唱慢歌的時候
有種讓人鼓舞的感覺
爆發力不輸張惠妹吧
不過她還很年輕
路遙知馬力嘛
ok
今天讓耳朵飽飽的回家咯
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一天下來
被問了很多次
（不要誤會，不時有人搭訕。哈哈。這是不可能發生的啦）
“你是一個人嗎？”
“對啊。”
（然後對方都是不解或奇怪的表情）
拜托
今天難得可以搞孤僻耶
我幹嘛左右拖著其他人啊
而且我要以個人欣賞音樂啊
身邊如果多了幾個朋友
不太好吧
All I wanted was
No rush, no push, no fuss
Just me
There was a girl...and her boy.
She stopped at the Maroon 5 player and plugged in.
Then the boy came along...made an eye...
And she dropped the headphones and left.
If she didn't want to listen to the album
She wouldn't have picked up the headphones.
Barely 1 song.
I bet you just the intro.
There was a guy...and his friends.
make that 5 of them.
All heading for the same headphone.
At the same time.
There was a group of JC students.
One of the guys was browsing, trying to find something.
But one of the girls said
"Hey XX, can you please come nearer so that we can faster decide where to go?"
"Wait la..."
There was a guy, enjoying his linkin' park
then a girl walked up
and he turned to meet her gaze
but somehow
stood too close
and hit her head somehow
and there was a fuss
and some apologies and a kiss on the spot he hit her by accident
and then the girl turned to leave
and he followed her.
At which song did he stop at?
I bet you that's not the thing on his mind.
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I like it alone.
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06/06/2007 the stupid thingsthere are people who know how to drink water but dunno how to cook water.
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there are people who like cultivate mushrooms and other flowering plants in their own kitchen sinks.
the funny thing is, they don't add what they cultivate to the food they eat.
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there are people whose sense of smell can be so acute, they know it when your soup is getting burnt.
the funny thing is, they can't smell the fragrance emerging from the plants they cultivate.
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I can only conclude, for certain small things, i really don't have so much patience.
I like to lose my temper and teach the necessary a lesson.
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A lot of times, I can only go "HUH?!?! WHY LIKE DAT?!?!"
Most of the time, I just go "WAH KAO" (which, choice of punctuation behind varies according to the different scenarios)
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I dare to say it in people's face.
Before you dare me to say anything...
please check.
Because, I think I made enough noise already.
And I probably did say it in your face before.
You just didn't heed my words.
You just " bo hew" me.
So
I don't bother saying it again.
If it's not going to make ANY difference, why bother?
It's not my principle to repeat things, lest you say i'm naggy.
Thus
For not saying anything, I don't think I should be blamed.
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please la.
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重溫扭蛋機2開心開心！
有史以來
那麽幸運
這是第二次
扭到我要的東西
我拿到跳跳虎了！！！！！！！！
雅呼！
嘻嘻
昨天沒有扭到
就是不甘心
我就是這樣
不容易死心
所以剛才又經過玩具展的時候
就告訴自己
不行
一定要再碰碰運氣
真的給我碰上了
^^
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我就像個拿到了棒棒糖的小女孩
手裏握著喜愛的小玩具
嘴角上揚
走在星光閃閃的夜空下
陶醉在自己的滿足
這是最簡單的幸福
這是我要的幸福
這是我擁有的幸福
******************************** 04/06/2007 有的東西就是舊的好在臺灣的日子
經常逛街
我愛鞋子
除了高跟是小矮人鞋柜中的必備品
娃娃鞋最誘惑我了
娃娃鞋
就是那麽舒服
臺北公館買的這雙
陪伴我走過了在臺灣的日子
逛街、上學、爬山
yes
爬山
哈哈
委屈你了，“娃娃”
可是，穿起來就是那麽的舒服
任何服裝的搭配都沒問題
我長了那麽大
都沒有擁有過那麽棒的一雙鞋耶
所以“娃娃”常常被我踩來踩去的
我想，再過不久
“娃娃”就要退休了
我不忍心穿破她
我還希望能夠一直把她留在身旁
可能一個星期穿一次
讓她兜兜風就好
因爲這雙鞋子，真的太棒了
可是，到處看了很多
都找不到適當的代替
找不到“繼承人”
哈哈
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真的
有的東西
還是舊的好
有的東西
沒有number 2
沒有substitute
it's the one and only
just like you and me
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我很清楚地知道我要找的下一雙“娃娃”是怎樣的
所以一走進任何一家的鞋店
晃一下
看不到我要的
走人
我有完美主義
找不到
寧可不要
不妥協
不讓步
不是因爲我固執
只是
我有我的原則
而且我堅信
我一定能夠找到我要的
所以
從不放棄
早知道
當時回國前
買下“娃娃”的姐姐或妹妹就好了
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有的人説不清哪裏好
就是誰也替代不了
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重溫扭蛋機今天回家途中
看見商場中央展出了許多玩具
本來沒有什麽
但是我突然看見
扭蛋機！！！
我的天啊！
這裡是個非常缺乏的社會
我竟然可以在這裡看到扭蛋機！！！
如果不是這個玩具展
我大概沒辦法看到比較“高級”的扭蛋機耶
之前在臺灣的日子
隨時隨地都可以找到非常可愛的扭蛋機和有關商品
也不知道爲什麽
自己會那麽喜歡扭蛋
大概是那種
you never know what you'll get
刺激
未知
好玩
我承認
我的内心住著一位小女孩
哈哈
機不可失
馬上去看了那一整排的扭蛋機
有點失望
都沒有TNBC
沒有火影人者
沒有我喜歡的就對了
看了很久
終于找到了威尼小熊
鑰匙扣
就扭了兩個
威尼和小豬
其實
我比較喜歡跳跳虎啦
開心就開心
鬱悶就鬱悶
自己的世界
自己的歡笑
直來直往
誠實、天真
卻不忘朋友親情之珍貴
跳跳虎很可愛
覺得自己的性格還蠻像它的
所以特別喜歡
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扭蛋機
很多很多回憶
收藏在那扭蛋裏
呵可喀喀
裏頭是什麽驚喜
會不會有一天
讓我扭到我想要的東西
還好
扭蛋機
只賣運氣
不販賣我愛的你
不然
得來容易
就不太懂得珍惜
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跳跳虎~~~
我要跳跳虎啦！！！！
扭給我扭給我嘛！！！！！！
哈哈
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一个人的精彩part 4今天看了史瑞克三世(sHRek 3)
还不错。
我很喜欢其中的含义。
Just because everyone thinks you are a villain, does not really make you one, unless, you believe what they define you to be.
You can be what you want.
HY bought me shrek ears from MACS....hehe...thank you HY!!!!!
*muacks*
I think it's sooooo cute...haha...
I should've taken a photo with her bro...who also wore the ears for awhile..haha...
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It's great having a day off like this.
When you can just hang out with your buddy.
I always enjoy the times we go out.
Which reminds me....HY...I think this is the first time we EVER watched a movie TOGETHER....
HAHAHHAHA
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And yes...we helped to boost PL's monday sales..
and thanks to Mr. 81
I had some special "order" I did not ask for
But it did seriously made my day.
haha...^^
It was kind of sweet and some sort of a surprise.
So far, no one has tried to "butter" my day like this before.
The only other time I had extra butter on my food, it came in two lumps that looked a lot like....
what comes out the other end...
haha...
but this was one smart move and really creative.
I would classify this under
"Romantic stuff money can't buy"
haha....
the first thing that came to my mind when i saw what came out on my platter
"Ah! I need to take a picture!!!"
haha...
so here it is...
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一個人的精彩
其實很簡單
不需要什麽花俏
只是簡單的快樂
單純的一天
就可以製造出漂亮的心情
*******
很開心
我又享受了一天
一個人的精彩
^^耶^^
***************** 01/06/2007 無題話説最近發生了好多事
有好有坏有趣有無奈
就是沒有時間和精力
把它一一告訴你
給我一點時間
我一定會分享的
確切一點
很多都是發生在心中的思緒
所以
我需要安靜了一陣子
才能夠告訴你我消化了多少
工作很忙
很累
每天回到家
洗澡、吃飯
（有時候連吃都覺得很累ORZ)
然後就攤在床上
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
隔天
又是一樣
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
但我不曾覺得乏味
因爲每一天都有新鮮事
每天都會思考
所以
還算充實的
只能夠抓緊每一刻
忙裏偷閒看書
聼音樂
寫日記
部落格
逛街
面膜
放空
哈哈
就是我啦
這個就是我
開始享受一個人的 時間
很珍惜
很飽滿
說真的
我還真的很喜歡放空
胡思亂想
放空
就讓精神、靈魂
自由自在地往外飛
飛回來后，集中力總會增強些
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最近，真的發生了不少
很希望很快能夠有時間
一一道來
一一分享
我有我一個人的精彩
耶！XD
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